A Kind of Happiness / by Rebecca Tillett

Adam told me before I left that he feared that, for me, happiness was a moving target. You said in an email above that ‘dreamers like you and I are never truly happy because this world is brimming with reality.’ While there is some truth to both statements, I’m here to tell you that there is a kind of happiness out there that is possible, that the happiness you’ve written off as never-attainable is attainable. It’s a cautious/guarded happiness, the kind that worries you and makes you scared because you never know when it’ll retreat, the kind you never let yourself get used to because you know it won’t last forever so you must always be ready for the drop back to the darkest corners of the earth, but it exists if you’re brave enough to look for it.
— R.Tillett