Needless to say, when I learned in early 2023 that here in Oklahoma, we would be in the path of totality for 2024’s eclipse, we knew immediately we would be seeing it.
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Chasing Butterflies /
Before this girl was born, my husband and I would talk at length about how strange it would be to finally meet her, wondered what she’d look like, who she’d be. When she was a baby we’d marvel at how tiny she was, yet how big her personality, and we’d talk about how strange it would be to imagine her as a child, walking around, talking even. It all seemed so distant & strange and impossible to really comprehend.
Read MoreHermanas Hermosas /
How come the cousin relationship doesn’t get much attention? It’s pretty great and unique actually. You’re friends in that you don’t share parents but family in that you share grandparents. I mean, it’s basically best of both worlds, right?
Read MoreOK Winter Wonderland /
Last weekend the Tulsa, OK area got an unusual amount of snow. My family and I just moved from Denver to a 7 acre property about 30 minutes south of Tulsa. This particular piece of land happens to have a small lake (or a big pond) on the property and the sudden and ample snowfall completely transformed this thing into a picturesque scene out of a storybook or painting.
Read MoreChildhood /
“When you become a teenager, you step onto a bridge. You may already be on it. The opposite shore is adulthood. Childhood lies behind. The bridge is made of wood. As you cross, it burns behind you”
― Gail Carson Levine
My Little Zombie /
Fall and Halloween are two of my favorite things. Also a favorite thing? Having a daughter who’s now old enough to dress up however I’d like but not old enough to have an opinion about it.
Read MoreBear Creek /
“Home isn't where you're from, it's where you find light when all grows dark.” ―Pierce Brown
Read More#terriblewritingclub #1 /
My ex-husband recently pointed out to me that my mom and I are not very close. Like, very matter-of-factly. My reflex was to immediately disagree, and I did. It sounded unfamiliar to me and oddly uncomfortable, that declaration he’d made.
Read More"I'm sorry about your mother." /
“I’m sorry about your mother.”
Last night, after being called a slew of really really horrible things by my mother-in-law for absolutely no reason save for a mental illness she claims is under control, I realized I have said this thing to many people close to me in my life.
Coronavirus Reality /
In one reality, I would be returning from our trip to Iceland this evening. A trip celebrating my husband’s 40th year on planet earth.
Read MoreUnexpected Transition /
For as long as I can remember, to my very earliest memories and forever since, so often my first thought each morning after being jarred out of sleep by an unforgiving alarm was “Dear god, I’d rather be dead then ever have to get out of this bed again.” And ashamedly, it was not meant to be a humorous desire or a silly exaggeration. Sleep has always been my favorite part of every day, my reprieve.
Read MoreThe Sketchbook Project /
For the last couple months I’ve slowly been working on a sketchbook for the @thesketchbookproject. I have to send it back by February 1st and I’m finally nearly done with it. I’ll be getting it back just in time. I only get a few hours each week to spend on it but because of that, the finishing of it feels so much sweeter. It’s mixed media; a combination of inkjet image transfers, watercolor, pen, pencil, marker and a few pieces of my heart and soul.
Read MoreFree Churro /
Two nights ago I cried pretty unexpectedly at the end of the Bojack Horseman episode, Free Churro. Have you seen it? The entire thing was Bojack giving a eulogy for his recently deceased mother, with whom he had a very strained & complex relationship. It was sad & powerful & raw & brutal & articulated so many feelings I have toward my father (& really, my mother too). Feelings of dismissal from both, but in dramatically different ways.
Read MoreThe Carpenters /
But they’re beautiful aren’t they? Weddings. Despite my own shying away from them, I am still a romantic, a feeler, a believer in things like fate and destiny and meant-to-bes. And I absolutely understand the want or need for a wedding, for a celebration with those you love and care about. That one dreamy day that signals the beginning of the next chapter. There’s a lot of magic and symbolism in weddings that I can appreciate.
Read MoreJón Þór "Jónsi" Birgisson /
Sigur Rós has been one of my all-time favorites since 2002, since hearing their song, Njósnavélin play over that last beautiful scene of Vanilla Sky when David had just learned he’d been dreaming for many years and choosing to finally wake up, jumps off the building in his dream. All happening against that fantastically beautiful montage of old photos and home movie footage, those snapshots and memories from our collective past gone forever now that for me, elicits such lovely nostalgic sadness.
Read MoreYou Are a Motherf*%$ing Force /
As of today, it’s been one whole entire huge tiny long quick gigantic short surreal transformative passionate trying wonderful exhausting year since I first got to look into your big eyes, baby
I am still gobsmacked by the strange magic of it all. Strange, shiny, messy, beautiful, incomprehensible magic.
Right Woman in the Wrong Timeline /
I sometimes feel like the right woman in the wrong timeline. Or the wrong woman in the right timeline. Does that make sense?
Read MoreArt District Fest @ RiNo /
I participated in this year’s RiNo Art District Fest thanks to my cousin Cassie and Red Wolf Gallery!
Read MoreLittle Lists /
Things I love:
The way she dances to Queen
Her laugh, her big toothless grin
Giving kisses with her forehead
The Hannibal Lecter thing she does with her tongue
There is Only Light /
I am much more protective of my feelings on motherhood than anything else in life. I am still working on unraveling just why exactly. I suspect because they are not always overwhelmingly exuberant, which I feel mothers rarely see mirrored or represented outside the darkest recesses of our minds. We are inundated with nothing but the happy wonderfulness so there is a built-in shame in feeling anything but, perhaps.
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