As of today, it’s been one whole entire huge tiny long quick gigantic short surreal transformative passionate trying wonderful exhausting year since I first got to look into your big eyes, baby
I am still gobsmacked by the strange magic of it all. Strange, shiny, messy, beautiful, incomprehensible magic.
I am low on a lot these days; sleep, time, patience, quiet, energy, money, aloneness, but not on words. No, never out of words to describe this mysterious existence with you, even if they’re not always the right ones or the ones that best describe the roller coaster ride of emotions that accompanies motherhood. In fact I’m not so sure such words exist.
It’s snowing today. First snow of the year. Just like this exact day last year as the first snow of the year fell outside my hospital room window as you entered the world.
It’s hard to believe that in less than 6 months you’ll be making friends and charming the pants off of all the people at your new daycare.
Happy birthday, Teenie Meenie, my big eyed beauty. You are a motherf*%$ing force to be reckoned with. • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • •
P.S. To quote your dad: “I can't believe we made a crazy cute little person and she's been here for a year already.”