Completely Drowning / by Rebecca Tillett

Sometimes you have to get to know someone really well to realize you’re really strangers.
— Mary Tyler Moore

I sincerely don't think I can be happy with anybody else. Ever. I wanna be happy with him or I just wanna give up and die. When you're your biggest enemy...well that's absolutely miserable but when the person you love most in the world seems to consider you their biggest enemy ..that's a totally different kind of Hell.

I've never slept so much in my life. I've never eaten so little. I've never been so completely lost as this. I've never felt so lonely.

It's been up and down.

And I feel like I've officially run out of energy.

I called in sick to work today because I just didn't wanna go.

I love to sleep so much these days. And I absolutely hate waking up..

Because sleep...oh, sleep - it helps me to escape from all of this.