I’ve learned it’s a whole lot easier to stand firm
by a decision until it’s actually growing inside you.
While I’ve rested on a decision and today is the first day
in many that I’m starting to feel like myself again –
I realize I’ll be dealing with this long after it’s over.
I’ll be looking into seeing a counselor sometime in the
near future to help me come to terms with not only this
but with everything else in my life that continues to haunt me.
I absolutely must move on from these things.
As I have no more free hands for any extra emotional baggage.
I feel like I’m floating aimlessly at the bottom of a 10-ft deep pool.
Struggling for air but not wanting it enough to genuinely care.
Even if completely drowning is a very real possibility.