I'm on a journey to find my purpose. I haven't yet figured out if it's something I carelessly lost along the way somewhere a few miles back, a few years back, a few spins back or if it's something I've never truly had a firm grasp on - purpose has always felt like a moth or a butterfly fluttering by me occasionally. If I'm lucky, every now and then I'll cage it between my hands, marveling at it's elusive beauty but it always escapes, fluttering away to be caged by others inevitably.
Read MoreBefore I Lose You /
"I would like to make love to you, and again, my tired head on your breasts, and again, my strong arms and shoulders lifting your hips up and rocking them, again, both hands turning you and pulling you and finally crushing down into you, again, my sweat and weight upon you. And again: for sex may get boring, but making love does not get boring, but it does get more and more intimate." —Waylon Lewis
Read MoreTo Embrace the New /
"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power." —Alan Cohen
Read MoreCraven Art /
On Saturday I shot a wonderful Denver-based artist who hired me to take some portraits of her in her studio. Angela Craven is a beautiful, funny, and interesting abstract painter in her free time and a software designer m-f to pay the bills. And I am exceedingly jealous of her studio space. A big open sunroom that's gorgeous, bright and open. I've never been hired for a shoot of this kind so I was really excited to do it and I'm thrilled with the results.
Read MoreMi Corazón Está Roto /
"I never thought this would be me...on this side of a situation like this. But life always goes on, doesn't it? In spite of loss, heartbreak, sweeping realizations. The wind keeps blowing, the rain keeps falling, the sun keeps rising. Eat, sleep, move, live. Do."
Read More1,000 Days /
"Whatever has to be done for you to be at peace, is what I'm willing to do. If that means going another thousand days without you, so be it." —M.O.
Read MoreWith Another /
"I couldn't tell you how or when it happened exactly but I've recently fallen in love with another man."
Read MoreLove Hurts /
“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.” ―Jim Morrison
Read More14,198 Acres, 485 Homes, and Two Lives /
"On the fifth day since it began on June 11, the (Black Forest) fire had consumed 14,198 acres, 485 homes and two lives. The blaze was 65 percent contained Sunday, and authorities were confident all the casualties had been recorded."
This one is dedicated to Colorado...and Colorado Springs in particular for the Hell this place has been through the last 2 years.
Read MoreA Child is Momentous /
"Making the decision to have a child is momentous.It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body." —Elizabeth Stone
Read MoreBroken Home /
I love urban exploration; exploring abandoned man-made locations. A week or two ago, my friend Jessalyn and I had made a plan to explore and shoot in some abandoned homes out in the middle of nowhere north of Denver but I hadn't known yet what exactly I was going to do there. I really opt out of doing much straight fashion photography anymore because I quite simply don't get much satisfaction out of it. It's boring. A few minutes of brainstorming and this idea occurred to me; falling down, broken home with a broken person inside.
Read MoreOnly Grace Will Remain /
My selves, my being, my love, my pain
Trudging through madness but desperate to keep sane
Stuck between darkness and everything illuminated
I, the accomplice in these suicides perpetrated
And from the cadaver, wretched self-disdain
and from the cadaver, only grace will remain.
Modern Marie /
Rebecca Tillett + Cassie Dixon + Lazy Spring Afternoon in Las Cruces + Crazy $3 Wig + Vintage $5 dress + Makeup + Mismatched Ribbons + Abandoned Home with Amazing Light in the Middle of Pecan Trees and Nowhere = What You See here.
Read MoreWithout Hearing /
"Did you know your brain can actually start to FORGET what certain words are supposed to sound like?...If you go long enough without hearing them, I mean."
Read MoreThe Guesthouse /
Every great once in a while, my camera and I collide with a model whose confidence and fearlessness know no apparent bounds, someone who isn’t afraid to look silly or stupid or even ridiculous on the gamble that we’ll create a great shot. I‘ve had the pleasure of photographing several amazing women with these bold qualities -and the added fortune of calling them my friends in most cases- in the last 12 years I’ve pursued this passion of mine. And Edie is one of them.
Read More...On the Way to a Dream /
Truthfully, I'd been looking for a new job for at least a few months beforehand because ultimately I realized I'd become far too comfortable in the position and found myself stewing in all the little negatives that tend to exist within so many companies. So I was very fortunate when a previous coworker (and friend) whom I'd worked alongside for more than 5 years at the Indy offered me a job working with her and the super-sweet owner of the studio. Needless to say I accepted in a heartbeat. (The hardest part of the transition was that I'd be leaving my most favorite boss-and one of my best friends-in the world.)
Read MoreShe's Having a Baby /
I shot my beautiful friend Britt and her husband today. It was actually the first time I really got to stretch the legs of my new Canon 5D Mark III since my husband got it for me for my birthday a full month ago. Needless to say, life has been a little crazy these days. Me and so many around me are stepping into new chapters and I suppose that's necessary and that's life. The only thing constant is change, after all. Nothing ever stays the same which I've always found bittersweet. I wish Britt and Brennen all the luck in the world in their new adventures in Seattle. I sure as hell am gonna miss them. And as a sidenote: This camera is damn amazing. I hope I'm badass enough to handle it...
Read More30 /
"I don't feel ready to be 30. I hardly feel old enough to be older than 25.
Possibly I'm scared that the only thing I've ever had going for me was youth."
The Great Pacific Northwest /
There's something mysterious and magnificent about the forests up there and I had a feeling of bittersweet sadness but a strong yearning despite it that I couldn't shake. The ocean was beautiful, of course, but it always leaves me feeling a little cold and extremely lonely and I've never craved to be near it as so many others do. The desert is my home and where I'm most comfortable; warm wide open spaces and a clear 360 degree view of the landscape and the horizon and so I confess that being shrouded by so many gargantuan trees left me a little claustrophobic but the entire time it was something I was absolutely certain I could shake or learn to live with it if the opportunity to live up there ever presented itself.
Read MoreTo the Moon and Back /
Dear dad,
Neil Armstrong passed away today and all I could think of was you.
All my love, Becky
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